If life was a movie, I’d want to be the irrelevant character. The character nobody remembers after 2 or 3 scenes. The character that doesn’t stand out.
If life was a movie, I wouldn’t want to be included in the end screen. I wouldn’t want to show up at the opening showcase or even put my role on my resume. I would want to be person #3 with no lines or movement and just stand there.
If life was a movie, I don’t want to be cast.
It’s too stressful. Being the star, being in the limelight. Having your life on display for everybody to see. They all begin to have opinions and keep watch of your every move. I thought it was fine, as long as I wasn’t doing anything wrong. But even that bit isn’t fine.
I want to be human, I want to fuck up and no one knows I fucked up. I want to misbehave and act however I want and have no body judging me. I don’t want people to know me. I don’t want you to know me.
I want to breathe, laugh and cry without you knowing about it. I just want to be left alone. I want to love without you knowing how I feel. I want to be me without you knowing who that is.